♥ Lose your mind.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

@ 2:30 PM

You know why I look at you all talking ?

Cause I damn envy you all .

You know why ?

Everytime when I see you all talking happily ,

And I look at you all thinking that if I join the talk with you all and what will it happen .

Is it happy than just now ? Or is it the happiness is ruin by me .

But I'm sure that it will ruin by me .

Cause I already obvious quite a while .

When you all talking happily , If I join it ,

The happiness is more lower than before I join it .

True right ?

I interupt while you are talking is because my character is like that .

I will just say out something suddenly ,

But I already try not to interupt while you all talking .

Or even try not to talk to you all , so that it won't happen .

I'm didn't talk to you all is because I SCARE THAT I DID THE WRONG THING AGAIN .

I now getting fear of talking to you all , cause I SCARE THAT I WILL INTERUPT YOU ALL AGAIN.

AH , Can you tell me how I gonna talk to you all and will not get any interupt ?

I really don't know .

And you say Joanna nvr said me bad things before ,

I won't mind , If got or never .

It a past already .

And , if you didn't call me out because I didn't change ,

Then let it be bahs .

It's okay with it .

When you call me out one day ,

And I will know I already change .

But if never call me out one day ,

I know i still never change .

I will hope that you will call me out one day ,

And i will know that I have change .

You know why I so care about this ?

Because I cherish the friendship with you all ,

If I didnt cherish , What for I change to let you see ?

I want to tell you that I really cherish the friendship with you all .

I don't know whether you all cherish too .